Finding the Write Words

Tonight right after I submitted my availability and confirmed for a Made-Up Musical rehearsal, I found an unsettling email in my inbox concerning my future in the show. I've been apart of the show in one way or another for a little over a year now - and I have been plugging along as best as I can with little or no rehearsals and hardly any feedback from those that run the show - and okay - or so I thought...

I got an email from the head of the show saying that we need to have a talk. Just reading those words set my stomach a-flutter. What's worse - I couldn't just sweep it under the rug and hope that it would go away...this called for swift and decisive action. I had to submit a response and the sooner the better. UGH! I HATE THIS!

With the aid of my boyfriend's objectivity I sat down to compose a reasonably sane email which would hint at my own displeasure over the current situation without burning any bridges. I mean I've been through a lot with these folks over the past year! We've become friends and I don't want anything to wreck these relationships. I'll admit that I broke down a little bit tonight. It just seems that things have been working against me over the past few weeks and this was the straw that broke the proverbial camel's back.

I don't enjoy confrontations - and I am fearing the worst, but the sooner we have this conversation the better.